two things ggg

i have to tell you that i havent read my friendlist for now 2 days and im really sorry about that but im buissy as hell and im promisse that i will start reading again after friday :)
second thing is that today was the last buffy epi in germany on tv and i still feel a lil bit weird about it cuz now its over. i mean it was my first fandome my first obsession my first tvlove and now an aera is over. i grow up with it i never missed an episode and now there isnt anything to miss cuz its over. when i saw the end in english i dosnt feel that way cuz i know its not the real end cuz still have the end in germany but now its there and i still cant belive it. no more buffy...
i mean i used to know every fuckn piece of this series i had knows every detail of every episode until the 5 season, then my obsession was on a lil lower level but i still love this show.
she made me grow up and i learn a lot from it. i started watching while i was fan since the first epi was on air or better i was a fan bevore it even started cuz i read an articel in a mag and i loved it so i was waiting a whole month for buffy to start and now its over. god ...