be or not to be - letter or no letter

arg im confused! im more then confused! i have no idea what i have to do know!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!
sit now 5 minutes in front of this stupid email and think about writing or not writing.
god im the crazyst person on this planet.
then i hear music i really like, yesterday was wonderful and funny to hear it but today it confused me more and it said to me god kill youre self lil girl!
yes will it ever happen egain??

oh hair is red now gg no more pink from this site gg it looks like mahagonie very dark mahagonie and i think i like it for a while :) lol i change my hair like a maniac :)
oh maybe fran comes to my birth gg i had the great idea we all go out in costumes gg like vamps. i think this must be cool when 7 people go out for dancing in a vamp dress :)
oh and i get a mail today *bounce* a card from marie :) she sends me a hug and a hug for frani. (and she write that shes hoping this time i dont loose the card *blush*)

its done

its really done just one slow cut and it was done. the blood runs out of it, little red lines all over my skin. its beautiful...