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omg i saw touched by an angel AGAIN. why? i dont know!
every time i saw this serie i think omg is this pathatic and totaly unreal.
its such a stupid stuff but i watch it again and again its like this fic i know
this fic is so bad but i watch every day about a new chapter.
and its the same thing with tban its so awww i mean all the time i see it i sit in
the end on my couch and cry like a baby. and when the angel monica starts to cry and tell
the "poor" little girl/boy or whatever god loves him/her my mind say what a crap, but i sit
on my couch and cry!
is it normal? i think no.
and now i sit here write in my lj what crap that tv show is and cry again!
i mean after the last epi i saw i download a church song cuz i cry when i heared it. is this
really normal? i think not!
ok was never normal i have this total crush in this stupid loveromans, you know intresting cover and the story is about a hero and a strong woman and he rescued her from the pure evil.
sometimes i wish i would live in one of them, its so easy all the time. ok the most time they are in danger but they all the time so strong.
and the men are never assholes they are strong and soft in the same time. you know what i mean?
i know i have this sentimental site and im total gaga but my god its a show about god and i
dont go to it.
im a wicca and i love to see this crap...how can this be?
and all the time when monica say "cuz he loves you!" i feel a little bit jealous or
something or better not jealous cuz i dont belive really in god or better i dont belive in church.
but in this world is so much evil and so many lost wishes and hopes and so much pain and fear
and all the same is in me. do you know the feeling that the whole world is laing on your shoulders and when you made one false stepp you fall and all other people crash with you?
i think i think to much! i tell acari that i think to much (and she not enaugh sometimes her own opinion) and i think i need something for not thinking so acari and i go next year maybe around europa. we buy a europa train ticket and make something like a road trip (dont laugh fran you know i love this road trip thing)
its really cold here!
outside its raining...inside its cold. good stuff or?
today i was at the doctor and when i get out of the house it was clear and when i get out of the doctor house its rain cats and dogs.
today i start talking with myselfe in english wow now i need only another me for make a bad english conversation *G*
fran i need you here do you have next weekend time? *G*
you dont see it but i sit here and watch my elijah pic, thats so weird ive never had any posters in my appartement expect the moviepictures. i have a big vang gogh picture and some of my own paints and drawing and now its between all this stuff thats so typical for me elijah pictures.
i mean i have this great prints from artists cuz im 21 and i love it its my grown up site. and i have pictures from cute little unicorns in my appartement its my child site. and now, in all this sites of my is a new site its an "i have an elijah pic in my appartement and im 21" site but what is it exectly?
i dont know.
do you want to grow up?
when i was younger i wish ive bin grow up but i wasent, but know when im grown i wish i wouldent. i miss my childhood i know its not the best but i feel saved and it was beautiful to know what ever you do you have something behind you. you know what i mean?
no one will belive it but on my right site sit a little plastic kanguru from my little poney and on my bed sit my old pink teddy rosie. i get her when i was 5 or 6, i lai in a hospital and my mum gave her to me when my bed goes to the operation. i never lost it its one part of my childhood, when i get something angry stuff in a bad mood and think now you have to grow up i was goin and pull all the stuff from my walls from that i think thats not for me the movieposters from what ever. but i never get rosie away shes my childhod!
i forgett the birthday of a friend, i know not nice but all my friends know im really bad with dates and names :) but i notice more and more that i dont want anything from my old friends its like a cut. i havent to tell something.
we are in different worlds now, she live her little weird life and i live...live!
its painfull to see it but maybe its painful to think about better times or whatever.
its totaly weird i write this here and im lucky its like a good feeling insite me. i dont know what i mean with this post but i feel good, or better or alive :)
how let lux elijah in bleeding is breathing (my fav. fiction ever) say: im bleeding so im alive!
this pain is the bleed, i feel not always a good feeling but i feel and so im alive!!!
thx
mysti
every time i saw this serie i think omg is this pathatic and totaly unreal.
its such a stupid stuff but i watch it again and again its like this fic i know
this fic is so bad but i watch every day about a new chapter.
and its the same thing with tban its so awww i mean all the time i see it i sit in
the end on my couch and cry like a baby. and when the angel monica starts to cry and tell
the "poor" little girl/boy or whatever god loves him/her my mind say what a crap, but i sit
on my couch and cry!
is it normal? i think no.
and now i sit here write in my lj what crap that tv show is and cry again!
i mean after the last epi i saw i download a church song cuz i cry when i heared it. is this
really normal? i think not!
ok was never normal i have this total crush in this stupid loveromans, you know intresting cover and the story is about a hero and a strong woman and he rescued her from the pure evil.
sometimes i wish i would live in one of them, its so easy all the time. ok the most time they are in danger but they all the time so strong.
and the men are never assholes they are strong and soft in the same time. you know what i mean?
i know i have this sentimental site and im total gaga but my god its a show about god and i
dont go to it.
im a wicca and i love to see this crap...how can this be?
and all the time when monica say "cuz he loves you!" i feel a little bit jealous or
something or better not jealous cuz i dont belive really in god or better i dont belive in church.
but in this world is so much evil and so many lost wishes and hopes and so much pain and fear
and all the same is in me. do you know the feeling that the whole world is laing on your shoulders and when you made one false stepp you fall and all other people crash with you?
i think i think to much! i tell acari that i think to much (and she not enaugh sometimes her own opinion) and i think i need something for not thinking so acari and i go next year maybe around europa. we buy a europa train ticket and make something like a road trip (dont laugh fran you know i love this road trip thing)
its really cold here!
outside its raining...inside its cold. good stuff or?
today i was at the doctor and when i get out of the house it was clear and when i get out of the doctor house its rain cats and dogs.
today i start talking with myselfe in english wow now i need only another me for make a bad english conversation *G*
fran i need you here do you have next weekend time? *G*
you dont see it but i sit here and watch my elijah pic, thats so weird ive never had any posters in my appartement expect the moviepictures. i have a big vang gogh picture and some of my own paints and drawing and now its between all this stuff thats so typical for me elijah pictures.
i mean i have this great prints from artists cuz im 21 and i love it its my grown up site. and i have pictures from cute little unicorns in my appartement its my child site. and now, in all this sites of my is a new site its an "i have an elijah pic in my appartement and im 21" site but what is it exectly?
i dont know.
do you want to grow up?
when i was younger i wish ive bin grow up but i wasent, but know when im grown i wish i wouldent. i miss my childhood i know its not the best but i feel saved and it was beautiful to know what ever you do you have something behind you. you know what i mean?
no one will belive it but on my right site sit a little plastic kanguru from my little poney and on my bed sit my old pink teddy rosie. i get her when i was 5 or 6, i lai in a hospital and my mum gave her to me when my bed goes to the operation. i never lost it its one part of my childhood, when i get something angry stuff in a bad mood and think now you have to grow up i was goin and pull all the stuff from my walls from that i think thats not for me the movieposters from what ever. but i never get rosie away shes my childhod!
i forgett the birthday of a friend, i know not nice but all my friends know im really bad with dates and names :) but i notice more and more that i dont want anything from my old friends its like a cut. i havent to tell something.
we are in different worlds now, she live her little weird life and i live...live!
its painfull to see it but maybe its painful to think about better times or whatever.
its totaly weird i write this here and im lucky its like a good feeling insite me. i dont know what i mean with this post but i feel good, or better or alive :)
how let lux elijah in bleeding is breathing (my fav. fiction ever) say: im bleeding so im alive!
this pain is the bleed, i feel not always a good feeling but i feel and so im alive!!!
thx
mysti
